Brief Note From The Journey (Text Below)--Finding Joy In "Nothing"

Things get really interesting when I get to a point where there is nothing that can be extracted or collected from any particular experience. 

Somewhere along the journey I learned that when I want or need something, it’s like a “bottomless pit” and it’s never, ever enough because that’s the way the game works. 

My predicament is that sooner or later, I am always going to “hit the wall” and there is nothing left whatsoever in yet another zero sum game that I am trying to win.

When the point of no return is reached, the saddest thing is to wake up and find myself still grinding away trying to take away something from nothing as it just simply cannot be done.

What’s in front of me isn’t what I am trying to make it be; it’s just what it is, and it really doesn’t require my input, and stands on its own.

The most liberating realization is to finally see that there is joy in Nothing as there really is something there, but it is fleeting and quickly comes into existence and then quickly disappears and cannot be amassed and set aside for later.

Life has really begun to happen for me after it’s all already been played out and all of the illusions have been shattered and the infrastructure of delusion has been dismantled, and all that remains is what’s really happening, right here, right now, without any need for me to “curate” it.